It Ain't Me, Babe (Hades Hangmen, #1)by Tillie Cole Published 27 Apr 2014
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Sinning never felt so good… A fortuitous encounter. A meeting that should never have happened.
Many years ago, two children from completely different worlds forged a connection, a fateful connection, an unbreakable bond that would change their lives forever…
Salome knows only one way to live—under Prophet David’s rule. In the commune she calls home, Salome knows nothing of life beyond her strict faith, nor of life beyond the Fence—the fence that cages her, keeps her trapped in an endless cycle of misery. A life she believes she is destined to always lead, until a horrific event sets her free.
Fleeing the absolute safety of all she has ever known, Salome is thrust into the world outside, a frightening world full of uncertainty and sin; into the protective arms of a person she believed she would never see again.
River ‘Styx’ Nash knows one thing for certain in life—he was born and bred to wear a cut. Raised in a turbulent world of sex, Harleys, and drugs, Styx, unexpectedly has the heavy burden of the Hades Hangmen gavel thrust upon him, and all at the ripe old age of twenty-six—much to his rivals’ delight.
Haunted by a crushing speech impediment, Styx quickly learns to deal with his haters. Powerful fists, an iron jaw and the skillful use of his treasured German blade has earned him a fearsome reputation as a man not to be messed with in the shadowy world of outlaw MC’s. A reputation that successfully keeps most people far, far away.
Styx has one rule in life—never let anyone get too close. It’s a plan that he has stuck to for years, that is, until a young woman is found injured on his lot… a woman who looks uncannily familiar, a woman who clearly does not belong in his world, yet a woman he feels reluctant to let go…
"It Ain't Me, Babe (Hades Hangmen, #1)" Reviews
MY RATING: ☆☆☆☆☆ Stars
It Ain't Me, Babe (Hades Hangmen, #1)by Tillie Cole
You know your reading a good book when
1: You forgot to eat breakfast and dinner time rolls around
2: You're busting to go to the loo but you've reached a good part in the book and just carry on reading and just about piss your pants!!
3: You inhale it
4: You hit a HUGE mother fukka of a book funk!!
5: You hunt down the author for the next installment
I was recommended this by a friend who was reading it also and she loved it, now the sucky thing was where I live we encountered a powercut (4x days) whole town went on black out, and it drove me insane because I couldn't get on line to talk to her about this, rave about this or see what she had rated it less than a 5 *whispers* I was going to hunt her down with my cast iron frying pan to the head lol
BUT anyways this book was the bomb!! It kept me on the edge of my seat many of a time and since I couldn't get on line to talk about it I then resorted telling the partner all about it needless to say he has been MIA since lol
I am sooooooo freaking hanging out for the next book of this!! Seriously all you biker bitches jump on this I guarantee it you will LOVE IT as much as I did!! I have read ALOT of biker books where they now fall into the norm but this one is sooooo far out of that norm box it is not funny, it's such a unique story..Please do yourself a favor one click this bugga and get reading!!
“We were always fated to be together. He is my everything. He is my entire world...Styx is my salvation.”
Welp, I am in the minority. Yet again. I wanted to love this one, I did. Like, I even love the premise still. Because cults versus motorcycle clubs? Hell yeah! The end result just wasn't what I wanted. Too high of expectations I think.
Mae has lived with The Order her entire life carrying out their wishes. On the day she is to be married to the prophet, she flees, leaving her sisters behind. Mae finds a ride away from the hidden compound, but the driver pretty much dumps her, severely injured on the property of the local MC Hades Hangmen. The club Prez Styx, sees Mae bloodied up and dying behind a dumpster and immediately gets help. Once Mae wakes up, she and Styx realize they have met before....
At this time, I really can't do anything other than rant on the things I didn't like, so I'm not really going to review this book. If you really want to talk to me about it, message me. Based on the fact that I gave it 3 stars, I did like the book, I just wasn't overwhelmed with it's amazingness. Again, I think it's because I had higher expectations. The last 25-30% of the book redeemed itself for me, but the first 60-70% really pissed me off.
Will I read book 2? I think I'd like to give it a whirl.
“We were always fated to be together.
He is my everything. He is my entire world...
...Styx is my salvation.”
It ain’t me, babe is dark, gritty and gut wrenching story of two people from different cultural worlds destined to be together.
Styx the infamous ‘Mute Hangmen’ is the president of the outlaw MC club Hades Hangmen. Despite his speech impediment, he is feared and respected by all. Even being a cold blooded killer, a reputation he earned to overcome his disability he has a secret! The one he’s been keeping since he was eleven, the girl with the wolf eyes whom he met in the woods captured his heart for so long that it became his obsession, his lifelong desire. After 15 years of nurturing his secret, fate finally brings his wolf eyed girl to his door step in the form of bleeding, bruised and unconscious Mae!
“Mae was mine.Mae is one of the four ‘cursed’ sisters belonging to the religious commune ‘The Order’ located in middle of the woods, guarded with heavy fence having no connection to the outside world. Mae and her sisters have been abused all their lives and one night after witnessing her dear sister’s horrific death she runs for her life and somehow manages to go beyond the safety of the fence after being chased by the guards, bitten by the dog, bleeding to death only to find herself waking up to meet the boy who stole her first kiss her only kiss when she was eight.
Fifteen long years of wanting her to be mine,
and here she sat,
curled up in my arms –
a fuckin’ angel in hell.”
"He was my only secret...The concept of MC book with a cult twist was quite unique and fascinating. Most of all I loved the connection between Mae and Styx. Their romance was the best part of the story, it was typical prince charming saving the damsel in distress with lot of fucked up things thrown in their way but every moment shared with them was so very beautiful. The secondary characters are to die for; they were cruel badass bikers but funny and damn protective of their club. I’m so glad most of them are getting their own stories!
my biggest ever sin.
He had become almost like a dream to me."
Rating clarification: Even with the great plot and amazing writing the story felt flat at certain aspects like for instance Mae has been abused, used and tormented all her life and after being taken under the wings of the hangmen she shows not sign of depression, nightmare, withdrawals or behavioral changes and for the girl who never stepped into outside world, she adjusts very well with her new found life. Instead of giving a month leap every now and then, the author could have dealt with developing her character and making it more realistic!
Now for the part I’m dying to say since I read the glossary : *RANT ALERT*[spoilers removed]
Buddy read with my bestie Eda♥
P.S: Thanks for trusting me and going in blind babe, sorry for the freak out over the glossary! Next time let’s make sure to read the blurb before diving in:p
Okay, because I created this bad boy, I'm gonna give it 5 HUGE stars!!!! I'll be releasing lots of teasers too, so as I do, I'll add them on here, as well as my website, for you to check out.
But before all that fun stuff, I wanted to share with you why I wrote this book. Its subject matters are dark and gritty, and in parts, taboo. Many readers have messaged me to let me know how intrigued they are by the 'cult' aspect of this story and I wanted to give you some context, a reason for why I chose to write about a topic quite alien to most. It Ain't Me, Babe, is very different from my usual style. Please read below, for why this book is so important to me.
For my undergraduate degree, I studied Comparative Religion. Due to outstanding lecturers, many who were considered experts in their chosen field, I was given the opportunity to meet various people from an array of cultures and faiths.
One of my specialised areas of study in my final year was in ‘New Religious Movements (NRM’s), Cults and Sects’. I was lucky to meet, and work with, members and former members of such religious groups. Most were happy with their lifestyle choice, others were not. I would say that ninety percent of the people I interviewed and worked alongside belonged to the former, but I will never forget the harrowing, and sometimes disturbing, testimonies and witness statements from the latter.
Unfortunately, amongst the genuine and sincere members of some NRM’s, there are also a very small number of opportunists and individuals who, for reasons unbeknownst to most, choose to use religion, and its influence on innocent people, for their own personal gain—whether it be for power, control, or sadly, for something much more sordid.
‘It Ain’t Me, Babe’ was inspired by the testimonies of ex-members from several NRM’s and the leaders that abused the power they had over their members—especially the women.
The female protagonist in this novel, ‘Salome’, endures situations inspired by real events told to me personally by survivors of such groups. Addressing this topic was very important to me, as it is an area of life, of humanity, in which most people are unaware.
Victims of these ‘opportunist’ groups are often not given a voice, and I wanted to give the many women I was so fortunate to meet, a chance to be heard.
‘It Ain’t Me, Babe’ is a work of fiction, but the doctrines, practices and experiences of ‘Salome’, her sisters and The Order in this novel are also inspired by several brave women who chose to share their story with me.
I am a thorough believer in the freedom of religion and respect, and have many friends, from many faiths. Most NRM’s that I worked with were honest and good people and do not deserve the bad reputation many of them acquire. What I do find unacceptable however, is when certain people take vulnerable, pure and God-fearing people and abuse their trust and kindness for their own selfish gain.
This novel is special to me, because I was able to share some of the issues these 'opportunist cults' can create, and the scars and nightmares, survivors of such places must live with for the rest of their lives.
The world of the Outlaw MC in this novel, however, is purely fictional, based on the author's research.
Thank you for your time.
Okay, folks! Follow the links for the teasers below:
Read my full review at Sinfully Sexy and enter the giveaway.
5++++ "Heaven & Hades" Stars!
You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got no soul to sell
Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god
You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god
Through every forest, above the trees
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
You are the reason I stay alive
Closer, Nine Inch Nails
“Sinning never felt so good...."
It Ain’t Me, Babe by Tillie Cole is a book that I was anticipating with bated breath. Being a huge fan of this author’s Sweet Home series, I knew that this book would be something special. I was absolutely correct in my assumption. What Tillie Cole has created here is an utterly brilliant and poignant tale of love that had me reeling with its raw, gritty and dark nature. Gone is Ms. Cole’s sassy and fun story-telling. What you get is an edgy, gripping and twisted story about survival and salvation. This book is nothing like Tillie Cole’s previous works so do not go in expecting that. With this being said, I truly feel that this author has definitely portrayed that she has some mad writing skills that left me utterly speechless and in awe.
River “Styx” Nash and Salome’s (or Mae) story began fifteen years earlier with a chance encounter that deeply impacted both of them. Styx was a young boy with a debilitating speech impediment and Mae was a young girl whose life had forever been changed by a cruel and terrifying incident. Styx was able to communicate with the clearly distressed and horrified Mae, marking her as the third person he was able to use words with (his father and his best friend, Ky, being the other two). Their happenstance meeting was brief but Styx was never able to forget the young girl with the black hair and clear blue wolf eyes and Mae was unable to forget the boy who had made her feel whole and alive even for a short period of time. The pair forged a powerful and unbreakable connection never truly understanding just how much their lives would change.
Salome has been raised in a strict religious commune under the rule of a Prophet named David never knowing what life was like beyond the fence that encompassed the commune. Her twenty-three years of life have been about rules and religious codes, rules she is meant to follow or else suffer the consequences – rules that keep her engulfed in misery and entwined with a destiny she feels like she is meant to lead. Mae truly awakens to all the wrongs and the poison brought on by the men of her religious sect and manages to barely escape after a final horrifying incident. Broken, bleeding and alone, Mae is found near a biker compound barely hanging on by a thread.
Styx is the twenty-six year old President of the mother chapter of the Hades’ Hangmen MC. Known as the “Hangman Mute”, Styx’s life is brutal and filled with violence, Harleys and vices. Styx’s world is turbulent and dark with no room for gentleness, passion and love. You live and die by the cut and with a speech impediment that could make him vulnerable, Styx has learned to speak with his fists. A formidable reputation and a cold and lonely existence is all he knows and understands. Styx has never allowed anyone to get too close, that is until a young woman is found barely alive on his compound. A beautiful young woman who radiates innocence and obviously does not belong in his violent world. A young woman who calls to Styx’s protective nature like no one else has before and one he wants to keep right by his side indefinitely.
Mae all of a sudden finds herself having to deal with the uncertainty of the outside world, a world she has been taught is full of hate and sin. She is confused, frightened and the only safety and security she is drawn to comes from a man she met as a young boy who is now rough, edgy and sin personified. Styx is captivated by Mae and despite attempting to keep her at bay, he is unable to completely stay away. He wants to do right by her and protect her knowing that he should let her go and find some safer pastures for her to start a new life instead of keeping her at the MC compound when there is so much existing turmoil and conflict; however, his obsession and compulsion to have her with him prevents him from ultimately letting her go.
“I thought you said, ‘it ain’t you who’s meant for me?”
He laughed. He rarely laughed, but when he did, I rejoiced at the sound of it: husky, deep…male. “Oh, it’s me, babe…Ain’t no other man for you...but me.”
“You have light within you, Styx, and I feel it shining through like the rays of the midday sun. It is beautiful. You are a good man.”
“I have only ever liked one boy in my life. I have only ever wanted one man to have as my own. I have only ever had one dream since I was eight. Styx, the dream is you. You stole my heart fifteen years ago and you still haven’t given it back.”
“We were always fated to be together. He is my everything. He is my entire world….Styx is my salvation.”
It Ain’t Me, Babe is ultimately a beautifully crafted tale of love and perseverance with two completely opposing protagonists who should never have had a chance at love with one another and, yet, they endure proving that they are fated for one another. Mae represents all that is kind, forgiving and good despite having had her innocence and childhood stolen from her by vile acts done in the name of a higher power. She is facing a huge battle within but deeply believes that Styx is the force to vanquish all her demons. And, Styx...my beautiful Styx...was this violent protector with blood stains tarnishing his soul. He was confined by his inability to speak with words but in no way did this hinder his fierceness and strength as the leader of his MC family. In the jagged and ferocious biker world, two souls find each other once again and give one another the faith and courage to move past the demons of the past and ultimately grasp onto a love that was predestined to be so long ago.
This story was captivating, unique and absolutely breathtaking. I was utterly entranced with its brilliance. Basically, Tillie Cole had me by the balls...er...so to speak. The plot is complex and yet this author manages a seamless flow from one scene to another. One of my favorite aspects about this book is how Greek mythology and religious undertones are cleverly interwoven into the intricate and detailed story enhancing my reading experience by pulling me in directions I never expected and resolutely drawing me in mentally and emotionally. The parallel references to the sordid myth about Hades and Persephone was intelligently executed. Ms. Cole took a risk with this storyline given her previous books and her reading audience. But, what a hell of a risk! This book is magical and the twists and turns left me on the edge of my seat.
All in all, It Ain’t Me, Babe is a literary feat that Tillie Cole should be extremely proud of. She sends a strong and profound message in this book about right and wrong, good and evil, perseverance, salvation and love. This is a book that stayed with me and I actually had a hard time writing a review in an attempt to do it justice. Frankly, I still find myself thinking about Styx and Mae. This book touched my soul and my mind with its sheer brilliance. A story that I am unlikely to forget. Ms. Cole introduces some fascinating secondary characters and I am hoping that this book is only the beginning of what I hope will be a series. So, are you listening, Tillie? Please do us all a favor and continue. I will beg if I have to!
****An advance reading copy of It Ain't Me, Babe by Tillie Cole was provided to me in exchange for an honest review.
This book is not a five star read! It's a 20 f*cking million star read!
The BEST biker book I have EVER read!
It OWNED me!
I NEED, WANT, CRAVE and MUST have more!
Unbelievable! Top read of 2014!